Okay, Remember about the thing I wrote in my "Getting to Know" post about....Falling in love with My bestfriend? Yeah, so here it goes.
4th Grade.
When I was 10, he became my classmate and I don't even know who he was, and during that time we're not even close so we don't talk! I'm the class president at that time so the only communication we have is when he's asking permission from me to go to the boy's room.
5th Grade.
The real story began when we became classmates once again, during the 5th Grade and that's the time when I had a big crush on him. It started when me and him finally became really close. I blame our seating arrangement for liking him at that time. So, during the 2nd grading our teacher arranged our seats according to what she's pleased with, So I sat at the 2nd row and he was seated in front of me. So yeah, we shared stories, he made me laugh, he pisses me off at times, he's really caring and he's really sweet compared to my other boy classmates. One Day, we had a conversation and out of nowhere he asked me about my crush....I said I had none because I don't really know who I liked at that moment, until I asked him the same question...."Who's yours?" and when he answered me, that was the time, I realized I LIKED HIM. "eh, please don't tell anyone ok?" he said "I promise" he leaned closer to my face, like he was about to whisper, I leaned forward so I would hear and then he said "Her..." while pointing to the direction of my classmate kelsey and In that moment, my heart just sank. I gave him a smile and teased him "yieeee, kelsey!" even though it hurts, a little bit. So yeah, after that I know that I like him. Everytime, I look at him I always caught him looking at kelsey and I can't even explain what emotions I am feeling that time.
"Did he found out that I like him?" yes he did, during 5th grade too and it was mad awkward and I regret telling him that oh my god. We had a long conversation again one time and he asked me again "who's your crush?" and my heart started beating so fast like it was about to explode in a split second. I went silent for a few minutes and then I smiled "I thought, it's best for you not to know" and then he said "Why? Do I know him? is he my bestfriend? you like elijah?" I laughed and answered "WHAT NO!!!!!" he laughed so hard and I must say, he has a really really cute smile, ugh and don't get me started on those dimples of his gahhhh. Ok anyway, then he told me "Come on, tell me! I'll keep quiet, I promise" and then I told myself "Don't be scared Gieanne, just tell him and everything will be ok" after finally convincing myself to tell him I gave him a smile and said "When I tell you, who I like, please promise me that nothing will change ok? act like you didn't know anything ok?" he agreed with me, after 20 minutes of long convincing I said "He's the only boy who is seated on the front row" he smiled at me and looked at the people seated on the front row, and then his smile changed into a straight face when he realized....HE WAS THE ONLY BOY SEATED ON THE FRONT ROW. I was about to cry when I saw his big ass smile, turned into a straight face. I regretted telling him that and it the feeling sucks major ass. After months of telling him the truth, everything changed just because of a dark confession. We treated each other as bestfriends, and I didn't feel like he was still my bestfriend after that. I tried to not like him after that, but It's just impossible especially when he was seating infront of me.
6th Grade.
Over the summer, I forgot everything that happened during the 5th grade and I totally forgot him. So Over the summer, I liked a boy named "Ramon" and I must say we agreed over the summer that our feelings are MUTUAL. So yeah, when school finally started, the 1st person I saw was him and that was seriously awkward, I was walking down the corridors when I bumped into him next to our classroom's door, we stared at each other for like 5 minutes, I broke down the silence and said "hi" he said "hi" back while giving me a very awkward smile. It was so embarrassing, I blushed so hard, they thought I was wearing really pink blush-on. So, I was waiting for Ramon to enter our classroom because we were classmates back then and I was so happy!! So, I decided to seat on the front row during 1st day, and when I turned to my right, surprise surprise, he was seated 2 seats away from me, I turned back around and avoided his eyes. When our adviser finally came to our classroom, we greeted her and when I turned to my right again, I caught him looking at me, I avoided his eyes and turned back to where my teacher is at and you know what? It was not just a one time look, but everytime I turned right, I always caught him staring at me, and that was just not on the 1st week after school started, but that was everyday, for the rest of the whole school year. (I will tell more about 6th grade-onwards on another blog post because I have to eat dinner, and I don't want to die of hunger)
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